Bittersweet

We started the morning off with a big ol' breakfast. 15 pancakes, 1lb bacon, 15 sausage links, 6 scrambled eggs, 1 omelet, and 5 cinnamon rolls later, and our tummies were full. We were originally scheduled to go out for Thanksgiving, but the weather did not look promising so we decided to just stay home. Right after breakfast, the 18lb. turkey went into the oven. I went to set the timer and it hit me--14 years ago our precious Lilly Marie was born silently on this very same day. Oh, how I wish the outcome would have been different. She was perfect and had the cutest little button nose I had ever seen. Time does not heal all wounds, it just makes it a bit more tolerable. I continued on making the food, stuffing, mushrooms, corn, green beans, broccoli, mashed potatoes, turkey soup, gravy and macaroni and cheese. For whatever reason, the food this year tasted the best it has for a very long time. Before we started to eat, we went around the table and each of us told what we were thankful for. It was heart warming to hear my children talk about being thankful to be part of a big family. It was also very heart warming to hear them talk of their sister angel above. Happy Thanksgiving everybody and Lilly, continue to fly high. I know you know how much you are loved and missed.

Stick a fork in me............

The last couple of days have been filled with disappointments, bad news and lots of trials. I honestly can not take one more thing. So stick a fork in me.........I'm done.

Happy Birthday Nehemiah!

One year ago today, a grandma and grandpa were born, an aunt was born, 4 uncles were born, greatgrandparents were born, all because of one little boy. Nehemiah came into the world very early on the morning on November 10th. I will never forget the phone call I received. I was sitting in the emergency room watching over my youngest daughter who had just been in a car accident. I was frantically giving updates to my husband via phone while he was in route to the hospital when I noticed I had a voice mail. That voice mail was announcing the arrival of my first grandson, Nehemiah. He weighed over 9 pounds and was perfect. At six weeks of age he rode his first airplane to America to visit us. I think he had enough Baby's First Christmas clothes to wear a different one every hour of the day:) Having him in our arms was the best Christmas present ever. Nehemiah, grandma loves you to the moon and back a zillion times. I hope one day we will be able to have the grandma/grandson relationship I have always dreamed of. I hope you have a wonderful first birthday. xoxoxoxoxoxoxox